Pain

Girl get out my mentions

You actin' pretentious

Used me for attention

I'm just glad we ended

Got a razor blade in the depths of my mind

Thoughs too sharp I've been on my grind

Can't believe I let you waste my time

Used to hate myself, now I'm all 'bout mine

Too much negativity around me

Fake homies wanna kick it like rousey

Remember back then all they ever did was clown me

Now I got the drip and they all drowning

Haters like a boat 'cause they riding the wave

I'm just tryna leave a mark 'fore I'm dead in the grave

Nights spent screamin' while I'm cuttin’ with the blade

Either that or I'm cryin' with a gun to my brain

Let it bang, y’all don't understand my pain

Red on my walls, homie no it ain't paint

I just wanna end it but I gotta refrain

I just wanna end it but I gotta refrain

Don't wanna be a letdown, but I’ve done it enough

Too many ash stains and razor blade cuts

So I'm reachin' to my waist for that thang I keep tucked

This the last time that I'm holdin' the gun

They really think that I'm on one

Came on up the scene, made a wave, then my heart sunk

Used to playing games with me, go look out the outcome

Hitting up my phone now, sorry but it's all gone

I don't got the time, busy feeling pain

Looking a my scars, I don't think they'll fade away

Playing with my head, so I'm aiming at the brain

Used to be the one they loved, now I'm singing in rain

I've been sitting in my room making songs and they all bang

Only way to ease the mind when it's all pain

Old friends hit my line but I don't hang

My anxiety's been pushing me the wrong way

Tired of wainting, I've been stuck in the mud

And I really hate the fact that I was never enough

Everyone around me thinks I'm living it up

But really all I wanna do is go and grip on the gun