Scars

Yo

I'm pushing you away

'Cause every time we talk, it hurts

Help me cure out my depression

It gave me a sense of worth

It's like you helped me out the mud

And then shoved me in the dirt

Now I'm stuck feeling like I'm the only person on the Earth

You were like my world

And I watched it fall apart

Now I'm drifting through the cosmos

And circling the stars

Help me put the blade down

And close up all the scars

But now my biggest scar

Is the one up on my heart

If it took my life to be with you

Then I would gladly give it

Depression's an infection

And you're the cure for the sickness

Lately I been tripping and honestly I don't get it

It was only three months but it felt like a minute

I'm stupid and annoying

But that's only 'cause I care

And any time you need me girl you know that I'll be there

Most nights I'm staring down a barrel

It's too much to bear

I'm afraid to let you go

I'll admit I'm fucking scared

And I hate being sober 'cause then I can feel the pain

So I tell myself to numb it and then grab the fucking blade

Watching as the droplets roll down my wrist like its rain

And I don't wanna leave

But you know that I can't stay