Mermaids Are Sea Sluts (spoken word piece performed on 90.3 WRIU)

I am nothing but a shell of the man i once was

So you could put me to your ear

And actually hear yester-year's ocean

I was in shape then

A much better built body

Of water with infinite waves

And fathomless depths

Where you could have gone deep-sea fishing for compliments

And caught plentiful schools of reassuring comments

Now all you get is the boot

You fell for the bait and got hooked on what you thought i was

Now we're both struggling to win this tug of war of the worlds

Where we breath the same air it's just done differently.

And i'm trying to figure out ways to have comfortably survive outside your element

Compromising intelligence

I dabbled in watered-down thoughts that

Filtered in from main-stream.

I'm offering mind-altering ideas that make the most quiet nature brain

Scream from exposure to the types of things that won't

Necessarily make you happier

They'll just give you a greater range of emotions

And i can feel myself getting lured into deeper oceans of

Fantasy lands

Where people think they're as safe as cartoons

Simply because they speak in bubbles.

A sanitized safe-haven

Where you could face satan and

Have his faith straightened.

His new goal would be to dethrone poseidon and

Have neptunes place taken.

They'd swash-buckled with their pitchforks

While lucifer shit talks and rips

Thoughts of coral reefs

For relief he'd be like "bitch, walk"

From this oversize aquarium that daddy kept cleanly

To unhealthy degrees

Writing suicide notes with invisible ink

On transparencies

And posting them to the glass boundaries that

Surround the seas of change.

Strangely enough, while bringing back the reel (!!!!!!!!)

I could sense intense resistence

So i had no other choice

But to cut the line. i'm not

Saying you're overly naive

I just think you should get into the habit of checking to see when strings are attached.

Fortunate for you i'm compassionate enough

To throw back what i catch

If its underdeveloped

And needs time to grow; though

I'm remorseful of the pain i've caused you.

And i want to kiss your lips better.

I sympathise with the sorrow by

Stroking the scar of my own traumatic experience with

My excommunicated tongue.

See i know exactly what you mean when you say

It hurts to much to talk.

I've been there.

I don't plan on returning 'cause

No matter how much of a distance i kept

Or how long i waited for my wounds to heal

They'd re-open with the slightest flash-back

So i sued time for mal-practice

That bastard's a hack with a

Rusty scalpel and

Barbed-wire stitched thread.

Instead of seeing things clearly

They're pitch red and there's this glitch in my head

That's got me thinking contradictions

It said:

"there are more fish in the sea!

Whether you hear me not,

Or you listen to me.

Whether you listen to me or

Hear me not!"

There are more micro-organisms in my teardrop.

But fear not

I'd never sink as low as to

Make my ears pop.

And i imagine now you only want to swim with members of your own league

And don't need me

Meddling

Sending sonar signals

High-pitched notes or symbols.

My voice is thrown far but ripples are only caused when you cast stones

But you shouldn't throw rocks

If you live in fragile fairytales.

This really means alot to me...

Ill always treasure it..as a token.

No you won't...

This is for the girl who loves me, the girl who cares about me for who i am, not what i look like!

I just wanted you to know what you'd be missing.

You think i don't appreciate art, you think i don't understand fashion, you think i'm not hip, you think im pathetic, a nerd... a lard ass, a fatso.

You think i'm shit, but you're wrong, 'cuz im champagne, and your shit!

Until the day you die, you, not me, will always be shit!

See when you put a shell to your ear

It is not the sound of crashing waves you're hearing

It's the amplified current of your bloodstream

It was your self pulse that created that

False human illusion of me.

Your tireless heart pumping

Out

An ocean of lies

And i foolishly tried

Filling impossible shoes

Resulting in my stumbleing

As i fell into the trap of making a women my element

Now i just can't get comfortable being out of you.