Identity

We all yearn for happy endings

A time when smiling comes easily, I

Used to want and chase that blue sky

Now I'm scared I've forgotten

How to fly through darkened storm clouds

I used to live within a safe lie

Familiar darkness keeping me alive, now

My art feels like it's not mine

Do I know how to fight

Even when the enemy is on my side?

I love that I can finally wear white

But now I don’t know who I am without the fight

Or flight, the fear of losing everything at once

Now, who am I?

Don’t know how to live my life

Without breaking like a glass

On hardened floors of ice

So similar but biting cold will stop the blood flow

Veins filled with the songs of crying

Tears of golden sorrow

I used to think it’s what I wanted

Being freed of all that churned inside of me

But now I wonder if this happy end is

What I want to be the end of me

The demons see my smile and then they leave

But they were safe inside of me

Although it’s gone, I feel anxiety when

I don’t know

Who I'm supposed to be

Don’t know how to live my life

Without breaking like a glass

On hardened floors of ice

So similar but biting cold will stop the blood flow

Veins filled with the songs of crying

Tears of golden sorrow

How do I live this life

Without breaking like a glass

On hardened floors of ice

So similar but biting cold will stop the blood flow

Veins filled with the songs of crying

Tears of golden sorrow

What do I do with life

I'm not breaking but I'm glass on

Melting floors of ice

So warm and yet it doesn’t stop the blood-filled veins

Not crying with the years I’ve spent with

Tears of golden sorrow