Dear Mom

I don't think that I can lie

I think I'm running out of time

I think that I'm finally losing my mind

'Cause I can't stop sitting here doing my lines

My momma said 'boy, you must be out of your mind, yeah

I see you in here on your grind, but

You only get older in time to go backwards

So it drops what you should go find, yeah

But mom, my anxiety is finally getting better

And she said that's fine, but

I can't have you here taking up space

Like your dad did when you was 9, yeah

But mom please just give me some time, I

Swear to God we gonna be fine

Swear to God one day I'll buy you a car

And myself, the best house I can find, I

Swear to God I'll prove them wrong

I know you believe in me, so I'll prove you right, just

Don't ever forget that I'll never give up

Even though this ain't what you like, yeah

But there's nothing else for me out there

I'll make it or I'm going down there

The cloud that hung over my head

It don't run out of rain and now it put around there

I swear to God I can not stop and I'll never be finished

Until this whole goddamn city diminished

Until I stand up and say that I made it

And tell my mom I have a reason for living

Yeah, yeah, yeah

Yeah, yeah, yeah

And mom, see, I know there's tons on your mind, yeah

You seem to forget about mine, yeah

I'll admit, I don't want to talk about them

I'd rather look at pictures of Violet

But mom, I just need to confide, and

Say what's up here on my mind, and

Tell you about all the shit that's been going on

Please can you just give me five, yeah

Sorted out, now the girl I love is back here, yeah

And I think she gonna stay in my life, yeah

It's hard cause I love her so much

But it's rough at the moment

I can't her mine, yeah

And plus, I'm in love with her mindset

It's crazy cause she's doing so much better than me

Like: How the hell did I find that?

Yeah

And Johnny's been downing these bottles again

And I don't think I can stop him again

Cause every time he go out partying and saying he done

He find beer, and then start up again

And mom, now I feel like a loser

This girl, I can not ever lose her

And John find a bottle and he choose her

But there's nothing else for me out there

I'll make it or I'm going down there

The cloud that hung over my head

It don't run out of rain and now it put around there

I swear to God I can not stop and I'll never be finished

Until this whole goddamn city diminished

Until I stand up and say that I made it

And tell my mom I have a reason for living