Never Forever

Lately things have gotten worse and I can't seem to handle it

My heart it cries for help while all the vultures come dismantle it

It seems these sunny days, and this warmth has turned to cold and rain

Now-a-days the light at the end of the tunnel's just a train

My girl she hits me up she asks me why I'm pushing her away

That's what happens when your brother says he could die any day

That is just what happens when you bulit a hatred for this life

Everything about it makes you wish that you had seen the light

And I ain't talking heaven boy, I'm far from getting into there

They don't let people like me in, broken too bad to repair

I've been thinking hard, what difference does it makes if I'm alive?

Why the fuck it matters if I live to see my niece at five?

Most of y'all will listen to this thinking that I'm always fine

I just crack a smile for a while, then I go and hide

Glad to see it's working, glad you seem to think there's nothing wrong

Glad to see you think that what I say is just a fucking song

I guess that's okay, that keeps you out my buisness asking shit

How do you cope with it all? Like shut up bitch, just pass this shit

I don't want your help and I could care less for your sympathies

If you need perspective, Hannah Baker ain't got shit on me

If you saw the inside of my mind, I bet it'd make you scream

If you think it's bad when I'm awake, come see the shit I dream

Come and see the shit I think about outside at 2 AM

You'd be overwhelmed and all your friends wouldn't see you again

When the rain falls down and the skies turn grey

I will be here in my grave

All that remains is the ghost of me

I am nothing like I used to be

I don't wanna stay, I'm going insane

I don't wanna be here anymore it's all the same

I just wanna lay, layin' in a grave

I get satisfaction from watching you fucking pay

I don't wanna stay, I'm going insane

I don't wanna be here anymore it's all the same

I just wanna lay, layin' in a grave

I get satisfaction from watching you fucking pay