born again runner

Woke up and read the news

Start my day crying over

Things you prayed would break our hearts

When my sisters and I were young

You said: We're trying to learn

To consider others more important than ourselves

Well, I'm not the one yelling

But you say I'm too emotional

Walk away kicking myself

Should I save my tears for somebody else?

Watching your sermon looking for an apology

I sat through so many and they always used to panic me

Face the pews

I need to leave

Go sit in the balcony

Sync my breathing with the AC

Pretend I'm in the nosebleed seats

Well, I guess I've had enough

You preach peace and patience

But you don't seem to have your own

I'm tired of calling your bluff

And I know I've said it more than just once

I know I'm not Jesus

But Jesus, I'm trying to be enough

Wrote you a letter trying hard to describe myself

You never seemed to see me

You always saw someone else I wasn't trying to be

To get you to love me

You said when I was a kid

I was always running away from a hug or some kind of loving

And hey, maybe you were right

And hey, maybe I still might

Come on, you don't have to be so tough

If you'll try to listen then I'll try to call you up

And I'll let you call my bluff

And I know I've said more than just once

I know I'm not Jesus

But Jesus, I'm trying to be enough