Beautifully // Depressing

It’s been a long time since I’ve felt right

I’ve been dying to leave as I bleed on the inside

Was there any weight in the words exchanged?

I’ll numb myself instead, let the cancer spread cause

You’ve sucked the feeling away

This chip on my shoulder, something that I can’t shake

I promise I gave you everything

Nothing more that I can give

Nothing left for you to take

I'm tired of speaking with a ghost

That I kept too close, now I'm someone that I don’t even know

How did I become someone else

What did I ever do wrong

As I exposed all my flaws, you built up your wall

I was always at fault

My lungs gave out when I tried to explain

I walked on needles and pins and never mattered anyway

Did you mean it? Or was it to mess with my head

I'm drowning in the deep end of everything that you said

Drag my knuckles till they bruise, spill my guts from the abuse

Sounds of somber echoed through my room

I'm drowning in pathetic thoughts of you

Despite the fact that you took everything

I don’t always wish things differently

I'm tired of speaking with a ghost

That I kept too close, now I'm someone that I don’t even know

The words you spoke only echoed a growing doubt

That submerged right into my brain

Here I am, a bird trapped in a cage

Still a bird trapped in a cage

Bittersweet, This loss is beautifully depressing

Life is beautifully depressing