Monster

I used to be a hurricane

Tell you how that really feel

Show you all that I destroyed

I grew up around the fucking way

I know you ain’t really real

I can feel that when you smile

I don’t care where you’re from

But what you see when you close your eyes

Strangers used to be your friends

They might still be if you didn’t care

Oh, I've been here before

Had to check myself to make sure

The feeling still pain

My people in a hurry

My people tryna grab at the change

Stopped looking both ways

When I saw one side is a mirror

And the world is a stage

Fuck you and your games

Are you not entertained

This was never what I pictured

I'm alone in the fray

Putting people first who couldn’t say my last name

Letting people hurt, tryna test my faith like ay

Run gone

Tell my brothers, run on

That fight was for me

I’ma keep moving in my sleep till I wake from this dream

And reflect what I see

Is she worse for lying

Or me for believing

Lost genesis, lord I lost my freedom

Grew up in conflict

Looking for appeasement

Used to draw the light and sell it to the evening

These days we choose to judge by the preview

Sometimes getting too close

They don’t see you

Shame on him for forgetting what we’ve been through

Shame on me for thinking I need you

Find me in the shadows of the city

Sunset falls behind the skyline

Carry the words you said to me

In case I'm in need of a lifeline

Walk to the end of that thought and press the glass

Beyond this life and over mars

Behind the canvas that holds the stars

The pale blue dot that’ll hold your heart

Behind the pretty faces, behind the egos

Behind the paper and the makeshift

Finally find yourself and can’t face it

So frustrating, lost conversations

Afraid to be wrong, that's why I never grew

That’s why this for me even if I say you

That’s why this for me even if I say her

That’s why this for me even if I say him

I don’t know why, sometimes I look for your face in the sky

More time I push them away

I write 'cause I never used to know how to say it

It’s just how I feel right now

I don’t really know much else

People come and people go

But I need you here I swear

It’s just how I feel right now

I don’t really know much else

People come and people go

But I need you here I swear

Mean it

Told you that I love you, didn’t mean it

Everybody here wants the feeling

Let it fill the room to the ceiling

No one really being, keeping up an appearance

Let down my dearest

Shame is what I needed

Took her to the eiffel, tryna change her view

You gave her the city but she looking at you

I'm still tryna know myself

Know my path

'cause when you lead the way

That journey's dark

I had to shed some light on my past

I had to change the clocks before

My first alarm, I told them

The last supper

Take time, it’s been a cold summer

Ooh, they wanna talk about karma

How could I wish pain on another

This film's a thriller

Sinners act as the pillars

Looking for my view

Brother you ain't supposed to miss the end

All the things that I wrote I writ in pen

You can visit them again and again

So busy talking about me

You abandoned yourself

It’s just funny that you’d ask me for help

It’s just another story left on the shelf

We so, insecure

Look for more

Life’s too short

To step into your 44’s

I mean we’re young

No idea what we’ve got in store

Both afraid to write first

Till we fade to thoughts

To the end of that thought and press the glass

Beyond this life and over mars

Behind the canvas that holds the stars

The pale blue dot that’ll hold your heart

Behind the pretty faces, behind the egos

Behind the paper and the makeshift

Finally find yourself and can’t face it

So frustrating, lost conversations

Afraid to be wrong, that's why I never grew

That’s why this for me even if I say you

That’s why this for me even if I say her

That’s why this for me even if I say him

I don’t know why, sometimes I look for your face in the sky

More time I push them away

I write 'cause I never used to know how to say it

It’s just how I feel right now

I don’t really know much else

People come and people go

But I need you here I swear

It’s just how I feel right now

I don’t really know much else

People come and people go

But I need you here I swear