Imaginary Illness

You can't see my scars

It's hard to read my thoughts

I'm feeling

Guess they're not real then

You believe in God

But even God

Doesn't show his face

When you need to talk

I'm still sick

Imaginary illness

I met the devil in my dreams

He said my dreams are what I never will achieve

He said I'm never getting better

And I need to stop using words together like mental and disease

That when hell will fucking freeze

I'm a basket case

Maybe I should lock my stupid ass away

Feeling like I'm half awake from all these pills I have to take

No one even asks or fucking wonders if I am ok

I'm locked inside my head and I just can't escape

You can't see my scars

It's hard to read my thoughts

I'm feeling

Guess they're not real then

You believe in God

But even God

Doesn't show his face

When you need to talk

I'm still sick

Imaginary illness

I hate parties

I hate people

I hate the kinda friend that only calls uwhen they need you

I fucking hate my bed but never leave it

Like a girl does when she's beaten

Start to love the pain I'm feeling

Feeling numb is not me healing

Someone give me something to live for

I can't wake up to no one then expect me to feel more

I used to dream of seeing my face up on the billboards

Now all I want is you to fucking see what ill for

It's all in your head

You're always upset

You call it disease

I call it depressed

You can't see my scars

It's hard to read my thoughts

I'm feeling

Guess they're not real then

You believe in God

But even God

Doesn't show his face

When you need to talk

I'm still sick

Imaginary illness