Bloom

I aged by days on afternoons behind those shades

In a darkened room my body lay, tumours blooming in my brain

I am consumed by an unfulfilling sadness

Not even misery loves me

I am alone, and I'm afraid that I always will be

My mother knows that I am sick

But I hate that she can't understand

That whilst I am grateful for her love

It won't stop the shaking of my hands

I can't apologise enough, I live a life devoid of love

And I always thought I could escape this

The silence would help me to sleep

I found no bliss in my ignorance

I found no love where you said it would be

No heaven without hell beneath, no misery before you and me

Too busy pulling out my teeth to bite the hand that made me weak

No heaven without hell beneath, no misery before you and me

Too busy pulling out my teeth to bite the hand that made me weak

I sleep with discontent, sorrow creeps around my neck

And I fear that I may choke to death

Your name still hangs in every note

And I've tried to fumigate my throat

Just as together, as we were alone

No heaven without hell beneath, no misery before you and me

Too busy pulling out my teeth to bite the hand that made me weak

No heaven without hell beneath, no misery before you and me

Too busy pulling out my teeth to bite the hand that made me weak