Haze

How much do you remember about those summers we spent together?

Because I don’t seem to be able to recall all those things I thought that I’d miss

Your perfume and your sun kissed skin

Turns out they meant nothing all along

I was haunted by the emptiness that filled the hole you left

A grave I still can’t bring myself to visit yet

Though I won’t be losing sleep, I still refuse to forget

It took me so long to admit we were dead

But we were dead

You buried it in the backyard of a house that we built with our bare hands

Where you said we’d grow old together

I felt safe there

I knew every crooked frame and every creaking stair

I could have stayed my whole fucking life

But time, it was never a friend of mine

I got so scared that I disappeared into my head for 8 lonely years

And it killed me, but it hurt you too, and I’m sorry

I’m sorry but you weren’t there when I needed you most

I felt like I was a ghost of someone you used to love

But I was never enough to save us

Are you happy?

Are you happy?

So tell me, is it serious between you and him?

I hope to God that he makes you happy

I hope I never hear your name again

Now the home we made is nothing more than a house

Where we fucked and we ate, but never fell in love

You’re sleeping in the bed we made, with somebody else

Are you happy?

Are you fucking happy?