Safer

I know that I have issues

I face them, I swear

Think I overcome them

Then turn they're still there

Wish that I was different

I'd like to let go

But when I try to change

There's my past

Saying no

Maybe it's all

'Cause of dad

His new kids, his new wife

Or why not just blame mom

Who's been nuts my whole life

When you've felt so alone since the

Moment of birth and

You've struggled to find your own true

Sense of worth

When it seems there is no one

Across this whole earth

To depend upon you carry on

Just like you

Always do

'Cause it's safer to rely on you

Oh, it's safer to rely on you

Seen a million movies all selling true love

Fantasies I'm not sure that I'm worthy of.

Caution to the wind

My heart's been on display

Still the end result is it's not gone my way

So when I date

Some new guy

Who's a deadbeat or jerk

At least I'm not so crushed

When it all doesn't work

When you once, unafraid

Wore your heart on your sleeve

And the ones that you loved

Chose to just turn and leave

Every day it gets harder to

Somehow believe

You will survive

So you strive

Just to keep up your guard

'Cause it's safer to hold every card

Oh, it's safer to hold every card

I feel out of control

I feel safe on the ground

I go building up walls

Yet I wish to be found

A true contradiction to wich I am bound

As I keep on spinning around and around

And I look at the people

Who've worked it all out

And I wonder why I'm still

A bundle of doubt

And sometimes I wanna just stand up and shout

"Just commit and deal with it

Before your live flies by

Don't let your life fly by"

But is it safer? Maybe it's safer

If I don't try