Homecoming: Denied!

I don’t think we will withstand this trip

Along these paths cobbled with shards

To tell you now makes me feel so heavy hearted

But one night, this life will tear us apart

And now that I gave away the stories end

Its facts sneak in so deadly slow and subtle

But just that something is subtle

Doesn’t mean it’s going to turn out right!

This lethargy, so perfectly shaped

Continues spiting filth in my face

Steady going on subsisting, outlive this trivial life

Although this edgeless dagger is stuck deep in my heart

How sad a fate, even these tidal-washed

Detonations of relief won’t save me

'Cause in case of doubt, this landmine marathon

Will guide me to my early grave

And in spite of everything, someday

I’ll tie this rope to the highest tree and take my life

And as soon as my last cigarette has burned to its end

Without turning once I will have left this world behind

Only death is real!