Nothingness

I wish I could be more

But my lack of will sank me into nothing

I'm drowning into a void I created

And I insist to dive deep

But I still force myself to feel

Anything that expels the anxiety

But I know I can't reach the surface

I just can't embrace anything

Seems like every effort is worthless

And life is a game I know I'll never win

Despair is already a part of me

And I still don't know how to push aside all the anxiety

I've lost all faith in myself

I cannot escape this nothingness

I'll keep on drowning 'till I disappear

I've lost all faith in myself

I'm diving in