Backbone

I'm not perfect

But neither are you

At least I had the decency

To tell you the truth

I once felt dead inside

As if the world around me

Withered to ashes and died

Now there's a piece of me

That's found the peace in me

No longer lost

But still waiting to drown

Any second the bottom could just drop out

And I'll be back inside this black hole

I just climbed out

Show me now

What's wrong with this picture?

When I've used every ounce of my strength

Just to get better

There's so much pressure

That it's driving me insane

So here's to waking up

From this terrifying dream

Cause the world around me

Is not as dark as it seems

I'll never say I'm sorry for being selfish

Cause I'm living my life for me

I found my backbone

Lost it when I was under your control

All it took was some clarity

To show me I'm no longer the victim

And I swear when I get the chance I'll walk away

I'll disappear

Like there's nothing left to lose

It's kind of frightening

When you're frozen in time

And everything around you

Keeps on passing you by

The world doesn't stop

Because we aren't living

Take advantage of the gift

The short-term life we've been given

There is a piece of me

A fucking place in me

Where all my demons were fed

With fucked up thoughts in my head

Now I can see that they were never real

As I begin to remember what it's like to feel

So here's to waking up

From this terrifying dream

Cause the world around me

Is not as dark as it seems

I'll never say I'm sorry for being selfish

Cause I'm living my life for me

I found my backbone

Lost it when I was under your control

All it took was some clarity

To show me I'm no longer the victim

And I swear when I get the chance I'll walk away

I'll disappear

Like there's nothing left to lose

I finally found my backbone

No longer a slave to your control

I'll be gone in the blink of an eye

Vanish without saying so much as a goodbye

Someday when you find my grave

There'll be a message carved in the stone

Just for you

Go fuck yourself