Amends

Well I'm sorry and I apologize

for any pain I may have caused you

and I made you my enemy

but now I need you as my friend

and I've been wrong for so long

not to ask for your forgiveness

and if you don't accept, I'll understand

but I need to make amends

but I need to make amends

It's hard for me to say this

but I've been going through some changes

and I'm really not quite sure where to begin

I've been kissing devils

and fighting angels

putting the rest of you in danger

and blaming you for the turmoil beneath my skin

and my twisted versions of the truth

are a weak man's attempt to look better than you

can't believe your pain never gave you a grin

and I've wanted to kill a thousand times

but I think I just thought that I wouldn't survive

but I found happiness ain't something you win

Well I'm sorry and I apologize

for any pain I may have caused you

and I made you my enemy

but now I need you as my friend

and I've been wrong for so long

not to ask for your forgiveness

and if you don't accept, I'll understand

but I need to make amends

but I need to make amends

Well I've lied to you so many times

with a mad desire to control your mind

searching for things that no one finds

and I've killed your time and stole you blind

I've taught you things you don't need to learn

so I can cut in line and take your turn

I've filled your head with snakes and worms

on my search for a bridge to burn

I wanna live with no uncertainty

but that man in the mirror's been hurtin' me

and I've come to you 'cause there's nowhere else to go

Well I'm sorry and I apologize

for any pain I may have caused you

and I made you my enemy

but now I need you as my friend

and I've been wrong for so long

not to ask for your forgiveness

and if you don't accept, I'll understand

but I need to make amends

but I need to make amends

If you see me sad, don't pity it

I've been a god damn idiot

My life, my fault, my actions make me break

and I can't even see it, so be it

that's what I think

when everybody's gonna blame the world

I blame my mom and dad and put it in a song

I'm weak, so I act strong

I'm short, so I talk long

and layin' in the hospital

I think, have I been wrong?

all along

I'm 29, still playin' "look at me"

what am I, three?

self-esteem on E

can't you see

I've been often neglegent

almost never benevolent

I think I'm intellegent

but mostly irrelevant

'cause I ain't changed one bit

even though I quit

who cares if I'm sober if

I'm still gonna steal shit

I had to be broken down

another apocalypse

to see what I had missed

and just come and tell you this

my pride, gotta suck it up

my gut, gotta tuck it up

so here goes, dawg

I love you

I fucked it up

Well I'm sorry and I apologize

for any pain I may have caused you

and I made you my enemy

but now I need you as my friend

and I've been wrong for so long

not to ask for your forgiveness

and if you don't accept, I'll understand

but I need to make amends

but I need to make amends

Well I'm sorry and I apologize

for any pain I may have caused you

and I made you my enemy

but now I need you as my friend

and I've been wrong for so long

not to ask for your forgiveness

and if you don't accept, I'll understand

but I need to make amends

but I need to make amends