This I Know

Dagnabit I got the same bad habits

my dad had as a lad

i get mad at myself sittin in the back of a cab

feelin whack as a whip on the back of a slave

on a ship back in the days in times wakin up

is a slap in the face

But the passion of one whose flesh was torn away

by a cat of nine tails and pierced by one spear

and three nails that saved my soul

But there's still times I get weak

and there's still times I get meak

and somtimes I write rhymes way too ill to repeat

And I don't wanna be another hypocrite on a beat

But sometimes when the sun shines

I wish I could sleep it away

but today I woke up with some strength

counted a couple of blessings

and stepped down from the street

and the sweet smell of victory put my mind at ease

and the breeze told the trees to whisper something to me

and they told me don't worry

I told them never when He is with me

Jesus loves me this i know

For the bible tells me so

Little ones to Him belong

They are weak but He is strong

Those who trespass against

Allow me to forgive

i wasn't dealt the hand

They got lives they got to live

besides they don't answer to me

I'm not you

and we've all made mistakes

and know not what to do

is true see if i hurt you

that hurts me

I'm not entitled to the Lord's tender mercy

untill I drop down on my knees

and say please put me into your solution

and free me of this disease

i won't make it one more step

unless you take

this load i tote with my soul

I'll just break

and won't wait one second longer than I must

a bond with anyone is stronger than this trust

So the only thing to do is lean on you

and not be led astray by what the demon do

Don't try to be the best man

be the best that you can

cuz number one ain't nothing but the opinion of man

and man loves death, hate, crime and pain

and kids are into theft and long lines of caine

insanity, profanity, ecstacy and blasphemy

but as for me

I'm just tryin to maintain

and it's a damn shame

our brains have been drained

to be crazy and lazy

scared to make change

and these hard times I try to be a role model

but I ain't gonna lie y'all

I still battle the bottle

and a that's my biggest struggle

I ain't the one to follow

sometimes I get the urge to leave a twelve pack hollow

just writing some inner sentiments

ain't none of us innocent

from mansions to tenemants

whether male or feminine

all of us are guilty of showing a little ignorance

being resentful, envious and beligerent

one day maybe we can figure it out

but til then I guess I'll just pull this cigarette out

pull up a chair and open a brew

sit down on the porch

and do what I do cuz