Killing Me

one by one by one- one at a time

out of time, can't even afford to breath

decimate my own mind-

one intent,

because it's now and forever-

better hold your peace

increase, decrease, decease, release your mind

i'm staring right back at the face I hate

but not for long, forget the words, they're wrong

you can talk your shit just get your fucking story straight

killing me-

does the temptation turn you on?

killing me-

my only hope, salvation- gone

killing me-

internal confrontations spawn

killing me-

fucked up again, some friend

you'd better be ready for the worst-

expect the worst

modify me misery, i've grown soft inside

retrogressing thought with time

enemy of god designed to piggy back-

pig, piggy, piggy back ride

all the way down, all the way down, all the way home

all the way back to where their father fell

i'd hesitate to talk cause I can feel it in me

i'm just too pussy-

i'd rather rot in heaven than in hell

killing me- suck it, suck it back further-

this must be my penalty,

a sneak attack murdering all my integrity

it's self destruction,

now i'm my own worst enemy

identity is killing me

killing me- why can't i see ahead of me

recently i'm thinking i don't need you anymore

killing me- i'll never be what i wanna be

no release cuz i know i'm my own worst enemy

now it seems to be me

and it seems to me-

i am my own worst enemy

killing me- my own lonely pretentious philosophy