Better Alone

Yeah, depression is my enemy, feel I'm forever stuck with it

Outsiders looking in can't see I'm mentally struggling

So much on my plate, there's multiple things that I'm juggling

It all comes in waves, let my ship sink because I'm done with this

Hate my stupid ass ex, 'cause I don't know how to trust again

My self worth is crumbling, try to walk but I'm stumbling

They ask how I feel, I fight the tears, then I start stuttering

I'ma keep it real, felt this for years, and I'm still suffering, damn

Someone tell me where's the day went

All on my phone, wow, this is how my days spent

Wasted all this time and I can't get it back but

I'll push it aside cuz I'll break down and snap, I

Hate the way I feel, there's gotta be a better me

'Cause all of this pain, people get a lesser me

These demons taunt me daily, they always get the best of me

I wish they die a slow death and don't rest in peace

Thought I'd be better alone

Still tryna find somewhere to go

I been stuck on this road, ooo

So alone, by myself

Look around, there's no one else

I'm alone, I'm alone, I'm alone (lone)

Yeah, I miss my daughter every single day

Me and her mom had went our separate ways

And that's okay, 'cause we were hella toxic

But we're cool, happy and well

But I just hate sharing you

Half a week hurts me like hell

I hate being without you

I keep thinking about you

This separations killing me

I'm in-completed without you

You're daddy's baby, you're my princess

If you need something, I'm a get it

Fuck the cost, 'cause I'ma spend it

Here forever don't forget it, damn

I refrain from being vulnerable

'Cause when I do, I break down and get emotional

The PTSD strikes, it hurts the most

And when I do, I lose my top, like a convertible

Every song I do is personal

This feelings horrible, I wish I could just escape it

Waking up gasping for air, I drown in my self hatred

I hope that god has a plan at the end of what I'm going thru

'Cause I don't have nobody I can turn to, I just know I

Thought I'd be better alone

Still tryna find somewhere to go

I been stuck on this road, ooo

So alone, by myself

Look around, there's no one else

I'm alone, I'm alone, I'm alone (lone)