...And Desolated Trails Of Anguish

I was plunged once again in cruellest treachery

Mindtorned as those whispers of forthcoming sufferance

Have pierced the silence , as well as my putrid soul

The soul is leaking painfully , filling the remnants in grief

Corrupted and entangled ,drifting abroad the shallow graves

So silent and imperceptible are my only hopes

Tired and overwhelmed by this never ending cycle

To extinguish what once torn my existence

Of futile deceptions generated by an envy of purity

Infused in darkness , bearing pallid shades of gallows dementia

Which cannot be attained here, which let me wrecked ashore

Here , light and darkness have gone forever

Always in the darkest corners of my ,mind , lies hope

To lacerate the flesh , till the life pours in nothingness

To leek in purest despair , expelling life forever

To break the cycle once , to feel extasy one last time...

As I drown in this final soliloquy , knives are buried within flesh

Blood splashes , staining beauty in everlasting misery

Pale , vivid disdain bestruck and grasped my hearth

Eviscerated hopes and my will to purify

Without salvation , I awaken , drowned and strangled by melancholia

Tore and choked by coldness of life , ashamed and silent

The world around me , so dark and fragile

Dying , raped and slaughtered by my lesserlife

Cursing this flesh entangling my true nature ,

At last I enter my domain , where demons have been slaughtered

Where angels have lost the warmth of life , pallid and darkened

Where all is pure , covered by a fog of wintry grey

And bleeding I'll meet those who've torn my conceptions

Who've shown me life , entrapped in a cage of despaired emptiness

For I'm draped in shades of forlorn essence

Muted and empowered by an enraged howling beast within

I became a fallen one , I plunged in the abomination

Silence hovered , pierced sometimes with shrieks

I arose soaked in filth , of my own mediocrity

Blinding my obedience and sickening all that is unpure

Wielding wisdom unrestrainable , forsaken my own light

All that I touch , lays lifeless in putrid failure

Scorched by chagrin of a dying mind , I do not belong here...

Forsaken was my existence , Death mocked my weakness

Agonizing in inextinguishable raping of my conceptions

For this sufferance was above the extinction of flesh

I'm a fallen one , enemy to all...)

But those thoughts vanishes with hopes , as whispers change

Crawling in a landscape of ashes and failures

To harsh revelations , where the pain is unbearable

Embedded in a purity so harsh , my hate is unbearable

Laying numbed , unable to react , as my soul shrieks

Damned within cursed mesmerizing non-sense

As it pleads not to die , cannot end my own nightmare

Trying in vain to sooth the sufferance in grotesque futility

And again I reenter the cycle , as death mocks me

Life has denied me , obscurity has drained my will

For my weakness , but I laugh back , for my strength

Pain as opened me her arms for the last time

To not succumb in what all engrieved souls did

To fall at heart of all I fought for , in Death

I may find soothness , but never peace of mind

For the discord engraved is too present and unbearable

And perhaps Death disguised as those whispers

Knowing my weakness , is trying to end my life

Pain shall forever flow within my essence.