Peace Offering

It's piling up, a constant hunger

I've been yearning for so long

You'd start to think that I'd be used to this

With every problem I dwell on

I'm still suffering, is this what I need?

A new love for a false sense of peace

Justify the sad excuse, of a stranger I call me

And if you pull the heartstrings

While closed in with clipped wings

I couldn't be enough for anyone when I hate myself

The peace offering doesn't mean anything

When all I see are these insecurities

Making me my enemy

I’ll pretend that I'm okay like this

But you can tell by my tone of voice

It’s not up to choice for getting out of this bed I'm in

Staying dormant in dark places I fall right back in

I concealed the guilt, tearing down any love I built

Now I'm wearing thin, I'm letting go

As you’re slipping (feel it all cave in)

Will all this pain be useful someday?

Pessimism finds its way

To keep seeping through my veins

I'm all worn down

I can’t wait this out

My mental health is defeated now

I heard the sound in this broken house

The memory serves me well

Please, could you pick up the phone?

I’d say it all, I’d make it known

That I'm not what I seem

That you’re everything in between someone who’s leaving