Portrait

I am a portrait of pure anxiety

Blurred by emptiness, overflowing false serenity

And I keep hiding all the mess inside of me

I am an old portrait suffocated by anguish

Trying to feel alive with desolation surrounding me

I try so hard to express myself but every word is so heavy

I’m a prisoner inside my own body

There's no way out that I can reach

And I keep carrying all the weight inside of me

I am an old portrait suffocated by anguish

Trying to feel alive with desolation surrounding me

I try to find ways to express myself or understand what I feel

But it's hard to think of anything when everything feels so heavy

My mouth just seems to be unable to speak what my soul feels

And how can I pretend to be in peace with this desolation surrounding me?

I’m trying to feel alive