August (Part 2)

I’m gonna chisel away at this rock until I get the shape that I want

And then I’m gonna continue to chisel it

Because that’s what I do when I find myself in a new relationship

Because I remember when this started out as mud mixed with water

That turned to clay and I would watch it break and break

And look more like the image that I wanted to make

And it’s pathetic I know, but it’s all anyone ever gave

‘Cause I was born a virgin covered in blood and free of sin

And that’s the exact shape I wanna make when I jump off this bridge

I’m tired of trying to be something that I can’t be

And I’m tired of fighting for something that I can’t see

I’m finding new life in every regret and finding regrets in everything I forget

And the second I’m at peace I’m thrown off by my need

To make everything complete, ‘cause I’m a sucker for the rule of threes

You hurt me and I hurt you. But when I hurt you, something needed to happen

To give me some sort of closure. And I’m sorry for my poor posture

I just can’t stand up straight and take this like a man today, I’m too broken

And there’s so many things I wanna say, if only you will listen

And I’ll put my fingers in the door, so when I close it on you, maybe I’ll hurt a little bit too

I’ll put my fingers in the door, so when I close it on you, I’ll hurt a little bit too

Because the only reason I held onto you was because I felt I had nothing left

And the deeper I carve into this rock I realize

It’s not gonna fit into the shape that I want, so I quit

Because I’ve always been afraid to fall in love

Because there’s something about falling, that just doesn’t sound worth it

And I said it before and I’ll say it again

It was problematic at best, because you beckoned me

And you lessened me, and no other love would accommodate

My blindfold so easily, but now I can see

Now I can see

God, I gave you all of my love, but I can’t see past this hurt

God, I gave you all of my love, so now what do I give to her?

God, I gave you all of my love, I just can’t see past this hurt

God, I gave you all of my love, so what am I supposed to give to her?

Cause I’m terrified

I’m terrified

But I’ve never felt so alive

I’m terrified

I’m terrified

But I’ve never felt so alive