Constant Collapse

There is nothing here for me

But I am here for you

So I will never leave

And I'm starting to believe

Every time you said you love me

You were just talking in your sleep

And I said I would die for you

But that was before I knew

That's all you wanted me to do

And time and time again

I can tell you I hate you

But that won't ever make it true

Even during the good times

When you kissed me

I didn't want to open my eyes

Because I didn't want to realize

How hollow our love was

But now that it's over

I'm still here, and all I want to know was love

And I only talk about you in the past tense

Because through all of this mess

It's the only thing that makes sense

And all I do these days is want

But I've settled for wishful thinking

And neglecting, and justifying my emptiness

Because it's easier to see what you have

When you see what your neighbor lacks

I would give an arm and a leg

Just to have my arm and leg back

And I worked so hard to help you find truth

Just to slowly learn that your silence says

Just as much about your character

As your words do

We gave our love away

I always thought that I would be okay

I never thought I would be okay

Through this silent note, what constitutes the truth

Cause I can tell myself

Time and time again

That I'm not making sense of this

And that cross around your neck was more

Hollow than your head

But I still just wanted to follow you to bed

I never listened to my own voice

Maybe some of us embrace death

But some of us don't have a choice

And maybe I'm both because I didn't choose this

But that doesn't mean I'm going to change

Because I never do, and you never did

And it scared me away

And that's why she still cuts your skin for you

And that's why that she's still in you

And her name is acceptance

And she used to kill me, and now she is killing you

And through all this stress

And carried out disastrous distress

I've learned I really don't like you

But I forgive you

Because I love you

I love you