Fears We Create (feat. Chase Huglin)

I know we haven't talked in a while

I know I ignored your calls

But I miss you tonight

The bible used to know my name

With heaven's weeping holy tears

Love that tastes like sweet champagne

I'm chasing after hollow fears

I've been staring at walls and I've been praying to the ceiling fan

That moves the air in the room in a way that no human can

I've been ignoring my calls

And I've been hoping for another man to sweep her off her feet

So she's happy without my hands

'Cause I'm so ready to be loved, but I can only pour out once I'm full

I'm ready to turn back to dust, but I cannot ignore the fact that I always play the fool

I'm sure I'm fine, I just don't wanna check or let this set

A while longer feels stronger than forget that my silence is as deep as my lack of sleep

My sense of peace and my lasting defeat

Darling, I know this hurts but promise me someday you'll be happy

So this pain means something

The bible used to know my name

With heaven's weeping holy tears

Love that tastes like sweet champagne

I'm chasing after hollow fears

The bible used to know my name

With heaven's weeping holy tears

Love's a loss and love's a gain

Hoping I feel at home, my dear

The night before our first interaction

Was an embrace of exploration of nothing or everything

Depending on how you choose to perceive dreaming

I spent an eternity in four seconds

Focusing on the thought that maybe love was just hormones

Chemical abnormalities, or social cravings

But then I met myself for the first time

When I made a lifelong promise that I knew I could keep

Because prior to my suicide I thought lifelong promises were always selfish

Or at least seeded in some sort of embellished lie we choose to believe

But I've been told enough times that I'm going insane

Just still want to breathe

The bible used to know my name

With heaven's weeping holy tears

Love that tastes like sweet champagne

I'm chasing after hollow fears

The bible used to know my name

With heaven's weeping holy tears

Love's a loss and love's a gain

Hoping I feel at home, my dear

I miss you so much

And I need you in my life

So please, please stay

You're the best thing that's ever happened to me

After everything that's happened