No One Knows (feat. Axyl)

Yeah, feels like I'm losing myself

Feels like I'm losing myself

Why am I dooming myself

The fuck did I do to myself

Should've been true to myself

Dumb to think you would've helped

Dumb to think you would've helped

Feels like I'm brewing in Hell

Feels like I'm brewing in Hell

Can't be hard for you to tell, uh

Stuck in a slump and I keep climbing up

I just turned 25 feels like my time is up

Feels like everyone's us and it's harder to trust

And I can't shake the gut feeling

I'm feeling like there's a knife in my gut

And that's a gut feeling

When you know deep down that the real person you love

Is dooming you that's why I left

No don't get upset when you see me 'cause I didn't wanna give you up

And it's fucked to think for you I wasn't enough

I just wanted your love but you wanted

There's some nights I wanna go and get hella drunk

So everything I was feeling could turn into numb

Addicted to you, you're my favorite drug

I buy your lies, you're my favorite plug

Sometimes at night I will stare up above

And wish under a star that I wasn't so dumb

Why does it even matter, shit I didn't matter

I built up my hope just for it to get shattered

I'm always alone with the thoughts that I gather

I flip through my thoughts it's a terrible pattern

As if flipping through 'em will lead me to answers

I try to move forward, but keep going backwards

I hide all my pain behind smiles and laughter

Where no one knows that I'm a wild disaster, fuck

Give me all

Oh, I wanna walk away

I'm living like a ghost

And no one ever knows

See me fall

Oh, I knew that I would break

I'm living like a ghost

But no one ever knows

Always alone I wish someone could see me

I lay in my bed staring up at the ceiling

Talking to myself until I'm overthinking

I'm home all alone no one knows that I'm weeping

I swear my whole life is so fucking deceiving

And I stand for broke with the checks I'm receiving

My money can't buy the family I'm needing

My money can't heal the agony I'm feeling

I need someone to love to me, someone to hug me

Someone to be there when my mind gets ugly

I swear they really think my life is stunning

Bro I come home to absolutely nothing

I'm just a lonely guy loaded with money

Nobody told me my days won't be sunny

I'm bleeding on people who didn't cut me

So when they leave me, they leave 'cause they bloody

I have issues with women, I'm so co-depended

I can't love myself, so I need her to give it

And that's always where my self-worth is depicted

And that's why I date women so narcissistic

My mind is a mess and it's always conflicted

And lately it's been hard to make a decision

And it pains me that I finally admit it

I've been suicidal and trying not to end it, fuck

Give my all

Oh, I wanna walk away

I'm living like a ghost

And no one ever knows

See me fall

Oh, I knew that I would break

I'm living like a ghost

But no one ever knows

I'm saddened to think people that think that I'm reaching

And that is the reason I feel what I'm feeling

I may have some fame, but it's pain that I'm reaping

I been praying to God asking Him for a healing

Man, I need my mom, I need my dad

I need the family we never had

Our family's broken, I'm feeling hopeless

Nobody notice I'm in a trance

All I have is my daughter I stare in her eyes

And I break down all I do is provide

How can I give her a family life

When it's just me and her every night, fuck

Yo, this shit is too much

I'm single-handedly killing my buzz

I don't make music 'cause I'm in a rut

And all of the stress of it is making me numb

Why do I dream of a Grammy I'm winning

When I don't have a family to celebrate with me

Look there is no bullshit excuse that you could give me

To make me feel like my damn life is worth living

I swear loneliness is a cancer within me

I'm searching for friends 'cause my family's missing

This shit is exhausting, I'm thinking of quitting

And maybe the end for me is a new beginning

Give my all

Oh, I wanna walk away

I'm living like a ghost

And no one ever knows

See me fall

Oh, I knew that I would break

I'm living like a ghost

But no one ever knows