Not Worthy

I put you on a pedestal, I don’t know why

I watch you through a telescope with weary eyes

Blindly, I follow all you say

Hoping that you'll find yourself loving me someday

Don’t leave me behind

I’m lost all the time

Now you’ve gone away

It hurts every day

I’ll pretend

I’m the hero you’re dreaming of

Take my hand

And we’ll dance until I wake up

I try to speak before you go

But now I’m left here on my own again

Empty the blood from my veins

I’ll never change

The flaws I can’t control

I can’t escape this fate

Or the monsters that call my name

Denial takes it's toll

Fears that I’ll never get off my chest

Lost track of the reasons why I don’t feel whole

Guess I’ll never know

Seems like I’ll never clean up my mess

Feels like they’re trying to take apart my soul

But I'm still I’m dreaming of a place to call home